Accident Prone

I hate how accident prone I am some days. Today I walked out of the in-laws' apartment (we were up there for the niece's birthday party. She's 3 now), walked down the steps, caught this little piece of sidewalk that was sticking up (you know how most never really line up... they rise up or down for the other part), tried to catch myself and then couldn't because I think my footing slipped on the icemelt on the cement. I ripped a bit hole in my favorite jeans. My knee has a big hole in it and already bled through 2 gauze pads. :(

I bet I'm going to have a scar from this. I scraped my hand a tiny bit but other than it stings, it looks fine. I also bruised my right knee. It was a kind of dark bruise at first but after about an hour it wasn't so dark.

Hubby is babying me now. He doesn't want me to walk around on it too much right now. He's sweet. :)

In other news, we have all our Christmas shopping done. We had it done a while ago. We are just waiting for Sunday. I am also almost done with my Tardis bag. I want to sew a liner for it. I have crochet'd a lot lately. I think I'm almost done with that for a while, too. Grandpa gave me a sewing machine (very excited!!) but the eye of the needle had broken off, so we had to go buy new ones. Luckily it wasn't some weird random size and we found the needles pretty easy. I can sew again! :)

Ok. Even though I don't work tomorrow, I am getting tired. SO.... I'm going to head to bed. Ta-tah!

*wedding pictures*

***I have lots more on the FB if you wanna see them!***

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Changing my name at work and everywhere else (I haven't gotten school yet), working, school and moving/organizing the apartment has kept me busy!

The bug guy came here and sprayed for a whole 20 minutes tops. All he got was the seams on the couches, the bed and the recliner, the baseboards and the edges of the dresser. That's it. Mrs. Manager lady at the complex was freaking out because we weren't ready for him a whole 3 days after we signed the lease. Uh.... Trying to move from 2 houses & get the one semi-clean while moving to this one, going to school and work and trying to organize the place enough so he can come and spray the place will take longer than 3 days! Pfttt! All well. We got it done.

I am not doing so great at the school portion of my life right now. I am getting so burned out. None of my classes are very fun. (Although the immune system and how diseases work is finally getting interesting. Before that I would fall asleep in class... but part of it could be that I had a pretty bad cold-thingy and work in the morning and class late at night. Yeah...)

Also, as soon as I get the pictures of the wedding/reception I will post some. :)

And now for something random!

I still need to decide a costume for Monday!! I've been so busy I haven't actually decided on one. I did get candy for work and whatever. . . So I have done something. So you have to give me that. I wonder how many kiddies will actually be brought to work to trick-or-treat the cubies before I get off?? Hmmm.....

I think a Harley Quinn costume would be amazing but I think that will have to wait until next year. I have been way too busy this year. I think I will just round stuff up from years past... OR use what I have and do like a masquerade thing.... THAT would be fun. Paint a mask on my face?? :D

any of these would be fun! Or doing a rag doll of some sort. Like Sally or Raggedy Ann.... Hmmm

Today!

Today we had my bridal shower! I've been super busy lately with work, school and planning the wedding. I will post pictures later!

I found some very awesome links!!

There are some fun quiet books that you can make! Star Trek & Star Wars.

Uggghhhh!

Drama. I hate all the drama. I get a lot lately. GAH!

I want to say so many things to so many people, but half of them either don't care or don't want to listen. Some of them are not the practice-what-you-preach types. Others I understand their concern but don't think they really did everything they are telling me to do in the same situation. I also know they would not change what they did, given the chance.

And others genuinely care. They will tell me why and not just insist that they are right & I am wrong and attack me if I don't do it the way they want me to do it. To those that do honestly care... thank you. <3

Some people are telling me what to do, when they have little experience in the matter. I love when people are so sure of what they are saying, but when it comes to themselves it's a whole different story. Does god/karma/the universe/the little pink fairies/the ancestors/any-other-being (great or small)-that-you-would-like-to-insert-here hate me?? Probably.

Sometimes I want to just give up. The whole reason I wanted to do things the way I am is because I want my family there. I want to share it with them. I want to do it before my little brother leaves for 2 years. I want a lot of things, but sometimes it seems the fairies don't agree. I want it to be happy, but so far it seems like all I'm getting is stress and drama from the people I want around (and even some I don't or could really care less about). I wish people would stop being so hypocritical. If you are part of my family and are reading this, know that I still love you and always will. I could just use a little less drama than what I'm getting. It's supposed to be happy. I do realize that everything could go horribly wrong and I could be unhappy. HOWEVER, it is possible everything will go wonderfully right and we will be blissfully happy.

I also knew that when I started saying I wanted to get married, I would be criticized all over the place. Top, bottom, diagonally, slant-wise.... That many people think I'm rushing, not old enough, not thinking at all.

Life is a gamble. Waking up in the morning is a blessing. Even walking out your front door is a gamble you take every day. You never know if you will find a $100 bill in the street or get hit by a semi. Life is life. You take what you get.

Rant About Work

I am looking for a new job. Why? Because I hate the one I am at right now. I've been there 2 1/2 years (it will be 3 in November) and now I seem to be getting blamed for things I didn't do (like cleaning the floor "wrong" when I wasn't the one cleaning it...plus the scrubber is a piece of crap) or getting stuck doing things Mrs. Boss didn't feel like doing the day before (when she was supposed to do it!) or because she was "busy" to do it.

When this happens I don't have any time to do the other things I was supposed to be doing that day. Not to mention that yesterday it was just me and one other girl, about 3 daycares and families coming in. I got stuck doing this other stuff and therefore could not help the other girl, could not play games with the mass of small children, and could not restock things. This was awesome.

I almost had to sit-in on the GM meeting for Mrs. Boss because she is out of town for the next week for derby. I couldn't go sit there for a few hours (they usually talk for 2+ hours) and leave the girl downstairs all by herself! So that was a no-go. I didn't really want to sit-in for her anyway.

While I was trying to count this huge amount of $, the security guard had to sit there and oversee (so I don't get tempted to steal it, or so I don't get mugged.... something like that). He kept getting calls from the other departments, but couldn't leave. It was just him because the guy in charge of security was up in the GM meeting. It's so fun trying to count or roll tons of coins while having small children yelling out big numbers trying to guess how much I had there behind the counter.... UGH! --Yes! It's a lot of money. Please, go do something else! There is no way I had a "hundred-million-bagillion" dollars there... I am pretty sure one of us would die of old age before I got that all counted, anyway.

It seems to me like I get yelled at, while Mrs. Boss gets a slap on the wrist for screwing up. This I don't appreciate. I also have only ever gotten 1 write-up the entire time I've worked there & that was because I was super tired and forgot we had put another till into the till drawer. Then didn't count it out and had to ring everything in... I ended up being the second till amount short. This was during the hockey tournament & I got very minimal amounts of sleep. I also was NOT used to waking up at 5 am. Not used to functioning like that, when I'm usually there at either 10-11am 'til 5pm, or 5pm 'til 11pm. SO, I blame my situation. Yup.

I could transfer departments, but I really don't want to stay in that building... I am just not excited to go to work anymore. There are a few people I would miss, but several I would not. Every once-in-a-while I have fun playing games and whatever, but if they don't listen I get irritated and almost want to yell at them. :(

Therefore, I am looking for an assisting job. There is one in Taylorsville that says you would be working at the front desk Mondays & Thursdays, and doing assisting stuff on Tuesdays. It was posted the 29th(?) of June. I wonder if it's still available? I have to write up my resume. Gah... :/

There are some other ones that want me to have tons of experience or have certifications for everything. Some I would have to renew, others I've never had or heard of. Like for coronal polishing... Never even knew they had certifications for that....

I really want one with benefits and no crappy hours that are not predictable in the least (like now... it's always different and if something comes up (like a party, graduation, girlscout sleepover, etc), I could be stuck there from 10 and night til 7 the next morning). I need one that would work around school. That would be AWESOME if I could get one with all that! :)

Still looking, but want a new one VERY soon.

(P.S. They still get my name wrong. My boss can't spell it right for some reason.... I always write it the RIGHT way, she always spells it the "normal" way. She can get the other girl's right... Maybe that is because she has a weird name? Very different "black-girl" name some might call it. I think even on my checks they spell it wrong. The bank loves to ask which one is the right spelling. I tell them they have it right, work has it wrong.)

SHHOPPINNG!

I went shopping auntie/sister Bexie today! We found a few wedding dress patterns we both liked. They were even on sale (for $1!!) so we got 2 that we might use. We are planning on lookin around at the loverly stores tomorrow before they close (because they was closed by the time we met up today). I'm excited! :)

I hope we find something good! Ahhh.... It's so hard to decide on things because there is so much stuff that is CUTE (and lots that is very not-so-cute)! We were looking at stuff online and in the sewing books for patterns and making fun of poses and just designs of dresses... Oh my wow... o_O

Talk about scary! Hahaha...