ROCK ME AMADEUS!!!

amadeus, amadeus!

so....i've got it stuck. hehe! we'll live.

anyways.....i need to find a date for the dance that's a month away...well, less than that. see, here's the problemos:
~it's a girl's choice dance
~there's nobody that i really like...
~i just got dumped, so the guy i was going to go with.....might not work.. :S
~i hate asking guys out...especially to big things like this where idk if they've already been asked.
~i hate looking stupid if they've already been asked.
~i've already had to do it once before....luckily he wasn't already going.
~i don't know who really likes me...and i don't want it to be awkward....ick.

so....if you get my delema...
and my first date I had to ask HIM out anyway. not cool. it's not really a confidence booster (or self-esteem booster) if i'm the one that has to ask the guy out every time. it kinda bums a girl out. WHAT DOES THAT SAY??? nobody likes you...at least not like that. or they're scared of you..... or i'm one of the guys.... it's a real bummer. he's gotta be cute. but not a jerk. and taller than me...well, about my height is ok. it's weird when i'm a heck of a lot taller than him..... :'(

so, in conclusion... I DON'T HAVE A DATE TO THE DANCE THAT I'VE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING TO ALL YEAR!!!!

rock me amadeus.... (and don't cry for me marge & tina) ;D

cute saying:

love is friendship on fire.

heartbreakers <3

hi guys!!

so i've been a little down....ok, a lot down.

anywho, i'm feeling better and i've decided that's what i want. i really don't like feeling all depressed. (it's really not all it's cracked up to be... ;} )

see, i was a tad...low.... cuz, well... me been dumped. me no likie it either, but imma let him figgur it oot. :D me thinking it be a good plan. yup yup yup...

(he broke up with me on saturday...so easter weekend sucked.)

however, my awesomeness buddy gived me some candy....one was heartbreakers (the heart-shaped version of gobstoppers) --they is to "heal the broken heart" XD she rocks!!! xoxoxo

i love typing like lil kiddy talkings.... it's lotsa fun. hehe!!

well, til later.... lovs ya'll <3

stupid boys

so this is lame.......

life is depressing.....

boys suck....

grrrrr...............!!!!!!!!!

now what? ......



:'( *cry*

oh...here's a better pic of the kitty...

ARGH! >:(

I'm really bored...

right now I'm waiting for somebody to get oot of the friggin shower so we can go ...ehm..(jarom). i've decided that I'm going to go get some layers (muh hur) and jarom wants to get the cover to his game that he bought, but somebody had walked off with the cover just before he bought it...stupid person. don't they know they don't actually keep the games inside the cases while they's on the shelf?!?! now he gets to go back and pick one up.

but se la vi... whatever. people are kinda dumb.

and then there's the bf...he works ALL THE TIME!!! so there is no US TIME! lame!!! grrr...
he's a friggin work-a-holic... again i say, LAME!!!

ohh..and when he's not working, i am. or we're at work, so I can't touch him...grrr.. >:(

stupid boyses.... raise your hands if you agree...

boom.boom.bored.

i'm sooo bored. :'(

today in muh loverly dental class we learned how to place rubber dams. fun. i ended up helping a few people. they're really not that hard...on a mannequin. :)

i've got to come up with a pre-season exercise routine, or something for sports med. yay...!

and then there's writing 1010! yet another essay to critique. whoo! (more like blah. not to mention that it's about global warming. we have to get "really deep into the subject." it's boring... :'( i don't like how the stupid guy that wrote it uses fallacies left and right. and this paper is, like, 10 years old! he says that everyone flies and everyone has a huge SUV. grrr...stupid people. (person...whatev).

and an even LOVERLYER QUOTE!
"i was the neighbor's imaginary friend." emo phillips :D

externship Xs

hello fellow citizens! (of the human race :] )

so i get to do an externship (it's like an internship, but the offices aren't connected to the school, and you have to find them all by your little lonesome.)

anyway...

i have to try to find a dentist that is open long enough after school (i get off at 2:10), is a general practitioner, is hopefully somewhat close, and doesn't have, like 20 externs/interns already!! grr....

what a pain in the arse....er...butt. :}

and, carma says, i should try to stay in the granite school district, and if i do end up with a dr. that is specialized, i can only do 1/2 of my 90 hours there! >:(

i'm not liking this already!

so i called about 12 different offices (all the ones in west valley and a few that weren't) and:

*one i had to leave a message
*one # is no longer available/disconnected
*one is associated with a school, so they won't take any
*some have anywhere between 3 and 7 externs/interns already
*some have an office that is too small (one dr. and two assistants)
*and the rest just aren't taking any right now...

ARRGGGHHH!!!!

carma (my teach) tells us to just go there...it's harder for them to say "no" if you are there. well, frankly i don't feel like using all my gas for nothing! and i don't want to have to drive, like, 1/2 hour to get there if I'M DON'T GET PAID! (and i only get to work there for about 2 hours...most offices are only open until 5 or 6).

dilemas...dilemas... :[

an unpleasant stretch

You know what....I may be a stranger to you, I might not even be your favorite stanger. But I'm a stanger nontheless.

And this stranger has been having a pretty bum day...month actually.

It seems like I have near zilch friend relations, lately. All of my could-be friends don't have a class or lunch with me, and other would-be friends just seem to stab you in the back somehow. I'm not really sure if they mean to do the 'stabageing'...but somehow it always works around to it.

And then there are some guys... Guys are, well, guys. Guys are different from girls in almost every mortally/humanly possible way! It would be nice to have a girl-friend. Not just somebody that is there and talks about whatev and doesn't seem to notice if you're having a realy bad day...even if you're almost to a blown fuse. I think girls tend to be more...emotionally attached. Guys...not so much. They don't know when is a good time, and when it isn't...until you finally do get that fuse to really sizzle.

Don't get me wrong. I adore guys. Most of the time I get along with them better. They don't like to start STUPID FIGHTS!! (ok, sometimes they do...but not over hair or "he's my boyfriend" or "your outfit is fugly." no, most don't hold grudges as long, either.)

I may be totally dillusional because I am, in fact, a girl...so maybe they treat me different. But I think a lot of the time I'm just one of the guys...or maybe just the girl that doesn't freak out over their jokes. Who knows??

Either way...guys are so much easier. I still don't really understand how the male mind works, but I'm sure I'll never completely figure it out.

Having an auto class where I'm the only girl (well...not true, Gretchen has joined my class this semester) has enlightened me.

Sometimes I wish life were just a little bit easier to understand, easier to handle.

Sometimes I wish I could break down the door and see what's just beyond the welcome mat of life, but maybe it's better that I can only go one step at a time...it makes life that much more unpredictable, that much more worth living.

Hopefully it will only get better from here...




Now, a few words from a pretty smart fellow:

"A well adjusted person is one who makes the
same mistake twice without getting nervous."
~Alexander Hamilton